While packing for various trips coming up… my mind starts reflecting on who I am, where I stand, and what others will think when I am gone.
Will I be a person who has gathered much for myself? In money, prestige, and listening to the comments/compliments of man. Or, will I have shown the light of the one I worship?   I know that we can become so caught up in how God uses others to lift us up. But I don’t want to get to the place where I think it is “Me”. God is my savior, in whom I breathe and live. I fail.. but He never will.
I feel so emotional… with the passing of Bro. Cory McCool. The loss seems so great some times I find it hard to dwell on it. But I force myself to, because there is so much to learn from him and his family. They have stood strong. Even in the midst of the trial, Cory was preaching to have Faith in God. Now, reflecting on his life… there are so many others that he ministered to, that is what they remember. His special bond with His God. He reflected the love of God and living by Faith. He placed his life in the Masters hands. He allowed himself to rest there, and walk in life knowing that His God was able, but also that it was His God’s choice. I know there are questions. Why? But really, we need not ask. Cory didn’t. He trusted.
I want my life to cause others to reflect. I see so many who walk away, deciding to leave their roots. For what? For what? My life is a sacrifice unto God. I don’t always get my way. I won’t always understand. I may hurt and my flesh may not always like the requests of God… but He is my God. I am his servant. I will trust and obey Him.
Please Lord, make my life pliable in Your hands. Help me to draw closer to You instead of looking at what others would expect of me. Help to see You and to allow You to work in my life. I pray that You protect my mind and my heart against the lies of this world. I pray that others see You in me. What greater joy should I have than to reflect You? That someone may turn to you because of my walk with You (Your leading me, guiding me and filling me with Your peace and wisdom – not of my own.) Be the savior of my life, Be the Master of my life… expect of me what You need to and help me to meet Your expectations. I love You and want to live for You the rest of my days. You are worthy of all honor and praise. You are excellent in all Your ways. Although at times we don’t understand. We rest in You! Thank you for the peace in knowing, You are in control! In Jesus Name. Amen.